Understanding Your Loyal Spouse

23 Dec

So it’s nearly Christmas… TRIGGER TIME!

I am having a hard time getting my husband to understand why I am ‘not over it.’ I can’t even bring myself to go shopping for any gifts for him. I have nothing. None. Nothing. Zip.  The kiddos are taken care of… but him…. I just feels so forced.

I am 30 weeks pregnant now. Little guy is kicking like crazy… but I can’t even enjoy it.  Perhaps its my hormones…

My work life has been keeping super busy (sorry for not posting) as it deals with one crisis after another! The best one is my boss getting fired for the board of directors because of sexual harassment of a co-worker of mine who he’d been having a one-time consensual extramarital affair with. Short hand – he’s a lawyer, he’s married (with two little girls to a high profile woman in politics – Sound familiar?), he was banging a staffer off and on, then when she got a new boyfriend who said that the arrangement was gross, boyfriend threatens to break up with her & then she files for sexual harassment! So he got fired… she got a settlement & kept her job.  But now half of our funding got pulled and now 40 people may lose their job!!!! How’s that for a trigger?

Just like my stupid Green… couldn’t keep his dick in his pants and now others have to deal with the consequences.

I shared this article, Understanding your Loyal Spouse, with Green because I wanted to be ho04-homeowner-mishapsnest about how unexcited I am to be buying gifts for him.   My feels are flat. Not angry. Just flat.  Exhausted.

It’s just a time in which I think about of the Christmas in 2011 when I lavished him with gifts (I was then trying to keep him happy and not cheating… STUPID ME) and he gifted me the SAME shit he gave Maria-the-whore. Oh wait, he spent an extra $25.00 on me! YAY, it must be a recognition because I actually bore him two children, right?

I dont know if he’ll even read the article.

I don’t know that I care.

It’s too bad.. its a pretty good article. If you are the cheating spouse READ IT NOW! 

A Snake, The Holidays… And a baby

15 Oct

bad memories quote3 years ago today the snake that would become my husband’s mistress had the gall to slither into my home as a guest for our daughters birthday party. At the time Green says the affair had not yet begun but I know they had already been flirting.   He was already interested in her. Phone records from that time and that day indicate that the text chatter between Green and Maria-the-whore was already inappropriate.  It would be two weeks later that they would consummate their filthy relationship with the typical motel room fuck fest after a ‘work happy hour.’ So fucking happy.

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In the News

13 Apr

Scene- DIY project Sunday. This weekend its replacing ugly mirrored closet doors in our bedrooms. Pushing them out of the house – it takes us both to move them. They are massively tall and weigh about 200 lbs each.  Kiddos- Ditto and Dot are playing ‘house’ in sunroom.  Huey Lewis & the News’ ‘If this is it’ is on the radio.

Flaca-  Sometimes I think we should give in and get divorced and end it all like Huey Lewis says. Are we happy or just avoiding fights?

Green-  No. Come on.. What does he say?

Flaca- singing, badly, ” If this is it, I want to know…. If this ain’t love, baby, Just say so… You’ve been thinking,  And I’ve been drinking, We both know that it’s, Just not right….”

Green, interrupts, –  Oh hell no, come on. No. No one listens to Huey. What does he know? Everyone knows that you listen to the News. You never listen to Huey.

And so we exist.  Moving on or moving past? Or just moving so we don’t have to stop and suffer the silence?

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