Somedays, like today, when I get hit by waves of triggers or memories of the lies, humiliations, emotional and mental abuse that Green put me through because of his infidelity I just can’t help but be overcome by it all. The rage sometimes is just too much. I know I can’t act on it… that’s against the law! Sometimes I just wish I could be given one chance… one freebie… one moment to kick him squarely and full of force in his f’g nuts.
What tools do you use to get past the rage? What do you fantasize about?
Kissing A Fool 
I get like this! I want my husband to suffer and I want Pig Shit to suffer because of the suffering their adultery has caused me. I am so ashamed yet have no role in it other than to be the trusting wife! The problem is I hate physical violence so can’t fantasise about this. I guess my rage and venom at him is quite painful for him and he has to absorb this. For her all I hope for is karma – her share of the negativity to arrive at her doorstep in a way that makes her realise her destructive behaviour. Guess I’m a wimp really!
Fantasize nothing! I go to the gun range and take out my rage on a poor, unsuspecting target with my shotgun! Talk about rejuvenation! I get all of it out and I always feel happier afterwards. Lol…
Well thank God Phoenix said it before me. I fantasize using a gun on the OW. I don’t even own a gun. I do not want a gun. I do not even like guns. It’s a fantasy, but it helps. I’m pretty sure it will stay as a fantasy. Besides Karma is taking care of her for me. She has stage 4 cancer and I hope she dies a slow and painful death rotting away!!
My h I don’t have any violent rage toward him. On DDay I did crack his lip open. I felt bad but not really. It was a slap with my hand not a punch. OK details. It was wrong. It happened and had never happened before or since. What I want to do is shake sense into him! WTF were you thinking. How did you allow yourself to be so manipulated by a low ball sociopath? I am convinced she was a sociopath. She fits all the traits. She got what she wanted from him and that was money.
I say go ahead and fantasize kicking him in the n*(ts but DON’T!! Maybe go to a boxing gym and kick away? I think fantasies are good as long as we realize they are fantasies right? I like the cartoon 🙂
Trying hard, Stage 4 cancer, yeah that is Karma. Funny most don’t get the pleasure to see it, and we both do. Huh. Wish you best on your journey.
Laura,
Yes and I heard yesterday that she is in so much pain and can’t get anymore pain medication. But she just got back from a vacation, WTH??? I don’t know. She loves to have pity parties, but I also think she is selling her Oxy. She’s on welfare now that she has cancer because the stupid cow didn’t buy health insurance when she was working. Low ball sociopath!
I hate that I relish in someone else’s misery, but she sure relished in mine. Oh well too bad so sad! As the saying goes, Karma’s a Bitch and sometimes you get to watch!
Congrats on moving ahead.
I have seen Karma work twice in my life, it is a show for sure.
I used to fantasize about shooting him in the head with an arrow, but woke up or stopped before I ever did. My therapist said I was not trying to kill him, but get a point thru his head… ok – I guess. I did want him to understand I loved him, but also hated him. But now he is long gone and Karma is also taking care of him. Wow double Karma for me and trying hard.