I think one of the most profound lessons I found on dealing with marital infidelity was how my husbands selfishness revealed just how much I had lost myself in our marriage. In the early stages of his unfaithfulness and when I threw him out I could not envision a future with him. I saw my family destroyed and I saw myself lost.
I look back now and don’t feel those waves of loss anymore. Instead I look at the time we spent separated and how much I learned to trust myself again. I saw how strong I revealed myself to be to my kids, my family, my friends and most importantly to my very selfish and unfaithful spouse. Sure he could choose to destroy his family and he could be successful in breaking my heart but he would not win at breaking me, not completely.Today is a quiet Sunday. Kiddos gone to visit grandma for the long holiday weekend.
I’m nervous about the upcoming holiday season that will be full of triggers for me. So to prepare and as a pick me up, I’ll spend tomorrow catching up on being good to myself. I can be selfish too. I’m gonna treat myself to a mini spa day. After-all if this little birdie is gonna be strong I have to make sure to keep myself in top shape! I hope you treat yourself too!
Have a restful holiday tomorrow, friends!