Ever since I discovered my husbands affair and since we have started to reconcile my husband is on hyper vigilant mode about my FACE. It’s annoying. Perhaps I should be grateful that NOW Green’s paying attention to me (after the better part of a year of him being obsessed with his skanky midget whore) but it does get to be super annoying for him to constantly ask, “Is there something wrong?”
I mean, yes, often times something will be said, some memory or trigger, even just a commercial on tv and I will be reminded an episode of our lives related to his actions during his affair or as a consequence of his affair. Sorry Green I can’t give myself a lobotomy to forget! Although it sounds very tempting to give HIM one.
Anyway, my response to him used to be really bitchy. Quick in coming like a snake bite, precise and full of venom, “Of course something is wrong, douche bag! Cheating on me is pretty fucking wrong” or “Ya think?! How about thinking of you fucking your whore while I was…” blah blah blah and most of the time ended with “Fuck! I can’t STAND the sight of you.” Oh, those comments seems to fit everything. Well one year in and I even start to annoy myself with it. So now I just try to suck it up, not forget the offense but just accept the anger, temper it, control it and say, “Yes, I am bothered by something but I prefer not to fight about it right now.” In response Green will sigh, annoyed probably (yeah, he has some nerve) and say “I’m sorry, Cookie.”
Well imagine how much this video made me laugh today. Perhaps I suffer from “bitchy resting face” instead? Perhaps when Green was complaining about me to his whore so that he could work his way into her sticky std filled panties he should have considered that I am not a bitch after-all! Hah. Perhaps had he understood me and indeed cared about me, he would have diagnosed me with some sympathy. I do think he suffers from resting “Asshole face” and for Maria-the-Whore, well apparently they don’t have a video for “I’m a Slut with No Self Esteem or Dignity Face” yet.
This post means nothing about healing from infidelity, forgiveness nor reconciliation. It is just a rant, I suppose. Sometimes I just need to laugh at the crazy place that my husbands cheating has put me in. The Infidelity Infirmary? I thought the video was funny and it struck a nerve since it reminded me of how Green is constantly and cluelessly asking me, “Is something wrong?”